Right, so my incredibly ambitious new plan is to update a journal here every day, i was thinking about doing it on another site, but i know i'd never be able to keep myself to it, so i thought i would do it on here, update one for a month (not updating you as inbox fullageness) and then write a new one for each month, and then do the ocassional special journal, and then update you when there's something important, which hopefully won't happen more than twice a month....
ANYWAY, today!

I've just been to see the play "oh what a lovely war!" by the stockbridge amateur dramatics society, my dads part of it and although he wasn't in this play, he still does stuff with it. i saw him in a play a few years ago, and omg my dad can act! it was SO funny and so brilliant, i've seen them 2 a couple of other plays too, but this one was literally jaw drop omg.
Not just because it was so good, but because it showed an insight into the world at the time, world war 1. now of course it's hugely biased, but i still nearly cried when one of the girls sung "keep the home fire's burning" on her own, no backing music or anything, with the projector behind her showing images from WW1. that was in the second half, the first half was fall of chair funny, i mean omg it was hilarious! you would to have been there to understand it. it also shows the stark contrast from now and then, the radio is going non stop about 9 british deaths in as many days, now don't get me wrong, i bow my head and take off my hat to these men and women, i have the greatest respect for them, but it just shows, well, i don't no really, the difference in the world? when the radio goes on about this, when in World war 1, 13,000 died in 3 hours, over a million died on the first day on the sonne, now i don't expect you to be able to get your head around these numbers, i can't and never will be able to, the loss of life is just, it just makes me so glad to be alive in an age where what i'm most worried about is going to the SADS (read up) party on sunday because, well, i'm getting there and not back then.
Of course, for as long as i can remember, the SADS has been quite funny, because the people who are in the plays, are always, well, not wrong, they're very good actors, but in a play about WW1 you need a lot of men don't you? particularly young men as thats who all of the soldiers were.... what do we have, we have 4 young women and a load of old guys (laugh, but don't even go there) and old women took, i say old, i mean 40+ and they can act damn well.
Now, there is the rather large awkidity (new word) at times for me, because, haha you guessed it, one of the only guys my age there (90% of the audience were old people, 1 or 2 guys a few years older, 2 or 3 guys a lot younger than me, then my godmother's daughter whose 2 years younger than me and then 1 or 2 who are a lot younger,
and, yeah, having omg drop dead (you can slap me for going on about this too long but seriously, if you were there, you wouldn't mind me saying this!) gorgeous girls on stage (say stage, it was the garden play so they were actually in front of you, and thank god i wasn't at the front...) is just, yeah lol, cos i get the whole feeling that i should look elsewhere at times, cos omg its a guy staring (not staring its a play!) at a girl (whose acting!) but yeah, pah >.< but yeah, and now my newly overly powered confidence has the problem of getting the better of me, but yeah, jesus did she have beautiful eyes tho (i can say that on here, i trust you guys ) but yeah
pow right to the kisser as my friend would say, and they just HAD to sing that song about, well, it's probably just as well i can't remember it but i was a bit if you were singing that to me i would fall over/fall off chair, and i mean that as a compliment,
but yeah, i'm rambling, and if anyone calls me lovestruck or anything just shush, this goes through all your minds i'm just putting it on here because of my stupidly ubered up confidence that i am SOOOO going to regret having soon....
anyway, if you've read this far you SO deserve a medal!
future things will not be this long, won't be remotely, cos on most days i don't see a play which is so moving, has such a strong message, makes you laugh uncontrolably, have incredibly beautiful people in it who can sing like angels (no really) AND a bunch of other stuff that i cba to put up here, so yeah

Life's pretty damn fab atm

I hope you're all doing well and enjoying life as i am!
now go and watch a play by your local amateur dramatics society today!
you won't regret it!

I bow to those who have fallen serving in the armed forces.
thankyou.
JJ