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So.
It's probably about time I updated this thing as it'll probably be ages again until I do so again, despite intentions to do otherwise.
So, as of writing, I am 24, still living in the middle of Hampshire, in what I wish was nowhere but sadly is becoming the busier south BUT ANYWAY ONTO HAPPIER THINGS.
I got the job! The job being a Forest Craftsperson for the Forestry Commission. Which means I get to work in a forest each day, which, for the most part, is awesome
It's a bit more complicated than that, but what I don't have anymore, is looking out a window going eerrruuuggghh I want to be out theeerrreeee, which is what I used to have during some of my part-time support work.
Which was: part-time, on a farm, based in a barn, surrounded by fields, where we went walking. So if I had that feeling there, I dread to think what it would have been like in an office.
Or a warehouse for more than a day.
So I'm just going to keep calling myself a lucky bastard....
I am breaking bikes at a rate of one per year for the last 3 yea- no, 4 years now I think it is. Including a steel frame mountain bike.
This is not something to be proud of folks.
But I am mostly still cycling to work each day, I'd like to be living closer (which means moving out so if anyone would like to join me.... ) though in the future, because having main A-roads to cycle down is... Not Great. Haven't had any near misses in a while, but winter is coming (shush ) and it's already dark when I leave in the mornings, and now with rain too!
Which is fantastic in the pot holey state of our roads.
Photography has plummeted somewhat, I'd still like a macro lens one day, but nowadays when I take photos it's because I've spotted a fluffy caterpillar at work (happened quite a bit recently) or I've picked up a dead thing, orrr I'm visiting Boaz and the members want to take photos.
Writing has similarly plummeted, I get the odd thing I want to do at times though, so might come back soon, which probably won't mean a good thing but hey-ho.
My entire activity for things not in-person has almost disappeared in the past month or two.
And I honestly don't know why.
What's bugging me more is that I used to be able to do lots, and now I barely have a text in me.
Which is incredibly frustrating as I have you, you wonderful, incredible friends, who I miss enormously, and want to see and chat to.
But I feel exhausted and I really shouldn't be.
Even with the new guy I work with, whose... Alright really, but fuck I miss Ollie.
I really, really miss working with him, and I had a horrible feeling he was going to leave as I got my job permanently.
Back onto you though, I know I could be texting you in this time, or replying to messages, and I don't know why I am, I guess this is easier somehow?
I know it must feel like I've forgotten about you, that I don't care, or what I'm talking to other people, and I'm not.
I just feel reaaaaally crap about not replying instead.
I think about you, the messages that I want to reply to, pretty much everyday, and if you think I'm not talking to you, chances are I am, as there are a lot of you.
I know brain's are bastard's for this sort of thing, but you mean more than I say to me.
I guess I'm just running away from most things currently.
What from or why I have no idea.
I recently got what might as well be my dream job at this stage (I mean for fuck's sake at 24 getting a job on a permanent contract that they enjoy? Working with mostly people who are incredibly awesome who you can learn lots from?) While I am living with my parents, there's no stress on me about moving out asap
And yeah.
Something.
I have no-one closer than my friends, while I thought this would have been the case for longer than a few months a few years ago (fuuuuck it was like 5) by the time I was this age, still happy with all of you in it.
For fuck's sake I don't know why I feel so crap, maybe it's just that I feel really tired tonight.
I bet it's the really, really fucking stupid thing that I'm feeling lonely.
Which is stupid because of course I do when I'm always feeling so tired or arghy or I don't know what to talk so ta-daaaaa.
I'm really sorry everyone.
It's probably about time I updated this thing as it'll probably be ages again until I do so again, despite intentions to do otherwise.
So, as of writing, I am 24, still living in the middle of Hampshire, in what I wish was nowhere but sadly is becoming the busier south BUT ANYWAY ONTO HAPPIER THINGS.
I got the job! The job being a Forest Craftsperson for the Forestry Commission. Which means I get to work in a forest each day, which, for the most part, is awesome
It's a bit more complicated than that, but what I don't have anymore, is looking out a window going eerrruuuggghh I want to be out theeerrreeee, which is what I used to have during some of my part-time support work.
Which was: part-time, on a farm, based in a barn, surrounded by fields, where we went walking. So if I had that feeling there, I dread to think what it would have been like in an office.
Or a warehouse for more than a day.
So I'm just going to keep calling myself a lucky bastard....
I am breaking bikes at a rate of one per year for the last 3 yea- no, 4 years now I think it is. Including a steel frame mountain bike.
This is not something to be proud of folks.
But I am mostly still cycling to work each day, I'd like to be living closer (which means moving out so if anyone would like to join me.... ) though in the future, because having main A-roads to cycle down is... Not Great. Haven't had any near misses in a while, but winter is coming (shush ) and it's already dark when I leave in the mornings, and now with rain too!
Which is fantastic in the pot holey state of our roads.
Photography has plummeted somewhat, I'd still like a macro lens one day, but nowadays when I take photos it's because I've spotted a fluffy caterpillar at work (happened quite a bit recently) or I've picked up a dead thing, orrr I'm visiting Boaz and the members want to take photos.
Writing has similarly plummeted, I get the odd thing I want to do at times though, so might come back soon, which probably won't mean a good thing but hey-ho.
My entire activity for things not in-person has almost disappeared in the past month or two.
And I honestly don't know why.
What's bugging me more is that I used to be able to do lots, and now I barely have a text in me.
Which is incredibly frustrating as I have you, you wonderful, incredible friends, who I miss enormously, and want to see and chat to.
But I feel exhausted and I really shouldn't be.
Even with the new guy I work with, whose... Alright really, but fuck I miss Ollie.
I really, really miss working with him, and I had a horrible feeling he was going to leave as I got my job permanently.
Back onto you though, I know I could be texting you in this time, or replying to messages, and I don't know why I am, I guess this is easier somehow?
I know it must feel like I've forgotten about you, that I don't care, or what I'm talking to other people, and I'm not.
I just feel reaaaaally crap about not replying instead.
I think about you, the messages that I want to reply to, pretty much everyday, and if you think I'm not talking to you, chances are I am, as there are a lot of you.
I know brain's are bastard's for this sort of thing, but you mean more than I say to me.
I guess I'm just running away from most things currently.
What from or why I have no idea.
I recently got what might as well be my dream job at this stage (I mean for fuck's sake at 24 getting a job on a permanent contract that they enjoy? Working with mostly people who are incredibly awesome who you can learn lots from?) While I am living with my parents, there's no stress on me about moving out asap
And yeah.
Something.
I have no-one closer than my friends, while I thought this would have been the case for longer than a few months a few years ago (fuuuuck it was like 5) by the time I was this age, still happy with all of you in it.
For fuck's sake I don't know why I feel so crap, maybe it's just that I feel really tired tonight.
I bet it's the really, really fucking stupid thing that I'm feeling lonely.
Which is stupid because of course I do when I'm always feeling so tired or arghy or I don't know what to talk so ta-daaaaa.
I'm really sorry everyone.
Well smiley day to ya!
Yes, I like Fresh Cut Grass from Critical Role. Anyway, I hope you're all well, I'm mostly just doing this for the selfish reason of wanting write down some music tracks that I may have listened to a little too heavily on repeat at times, so some are fairly tied to memories/feelings. B ut thought I'd also say hi, hope you're all well, I probably won't see comments as I'm not on here, but if any of you are still here, and want to say hi, no matter how long it's been, then, well, hi :) *waves* Soundtrack to 2020: Michael Damon Mitchell - Alone (in particular https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxWH3-7Vk34 ) (I didn't first hear this until October 2020 I think.... but that's not the point!) Soundtrack to 2021: Moontricks - Mountains. Followed by Moontricks - Home. The early summer: Matthew Chaim - Tender(Intro) & Sunflowers. Winter 2021/22: Art School Girlfriend - Good As I Wanted. 2022.... We shall wait and see.
Comedy gig tomorrow anyone?
I keep meaning to post stuff on here, and then I get busy, or get distracted something by pretty like the frost or awesome like Borderlands 2.
But anyway, I have 2 tickets for an awesome gig tomorrow night in Winchester, trust me when I say it's incredibly awesome nerdy sciency humour that you'll all love more than you know unless you know how good nerdy sciencey humour is in which case you'll know there's nothing better :D
So yeah, reply if you wanna come! I'm trying to poke lots of you as everyone who wants to come can't make it, and I'd quite like some company =P it's 7:45 til 10:30 ish so no problem with trains and we can meet up earlie
30th June 2012 HQ Picnic devmeet
It was EEEEEPIIIIICCC!!!
Each time I looked up at the sky it was insanely beautiful and blue skies and the clouds were SOOOO PRETTY. And so the sun continues to shine on devmeets :D
Pretty sure we had more people than the HQ meet 3 years ago :D :thumb311643354: Was strange being on "the other side" of things though, I think this sort of meet is somehow more fun for the new people, as it (for me at least, and I know it did the same for lots of others from reading what they're saying) opens up a whole new world, actually meeting awesome like minded people is quite indescribable and incredible.
So being on the other side where I already know
Yesterdays Sketch meet
Only when riding home last night did I keep on thinking I should write about the meet, and only after thinking that did I remember that I used to always write up about devmeets.
Well, the first 3 or something anyway :D
But the reason I wanted to write about it is that it was different to the usual devmeets for a while, not only because it was heavily art related, it being a sketch meet and all (and holy moly words cannot describe how amazing your art was!) but also....
Hang on, I've done this wrong, that's why it's different to the usual meets, which is very, very awesome, and the fact we also did different stuff, like go off to the Britis
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Dude, I hope everything is okay.
I am missing you buddy!
I am missing you buddy!